The Past...

The past has been running through my head these last few weeks. I haven’t decided if that is good, bad or just natural given the magnitude of the events over the last year. I think it is possibly due to the anniversary of the huge life altering event that took place for me last year is growing close - March 2nd and 3rd to be exact. And I think deep down maybe some things have yet to heal for me. I know in my last post I said I was finally ready to write about it all, and I still am, but finding just the right way to do that is still eluding me. I think the problem is in that yes “the event” was a huge catalyst in my life, but it also was a traumatic humbling event in another’s and I need to be respectful of that. And it doesn’t just end there; it was a domino effect in so many other lives too. Almost as if a bomb went off and shrapnel went in every direction. However, I know I can’t move on or truly heal until I write. It is just the way I am. I also know that I have learned so much in a year’s time, lessons that I should have learned long ago. I want to be able to share all of that and to be able to look back on it myself. So I guess that leads to the question – where to start? I think it only makes sense to go back to late 2008 and start there, for that’s when I truly began to see that my life was crashing around me.